Why can't I accept that I am in no position to have a dream wedding and need to elope? Is there any hope?

Just think about your future. Elope, and build your future from there. Meet new people. Go out. Get a new job. Get new hobbies. After you've established yourself, renew your vows, where you can have a traditional ceremony like you dreamed of, with people there to share it with you. Good luck.